As autumn finally settles in, I found a perfect autumn outfit that really suits my style of florals year round. To me, autumn always signified the death of the year, a depressing time, and as it is, it seems that the feelings of change and starting over are happening once again.
You may get close to people. Series of events, pulling your destiny together. You spend time with them and you take for granted the time you have each day. And one day, either you have to leave or they have to leave. You have dreams to pursue, they have life pulling them in another direction. True friendship is lasting, but it is painful when life takes you or them away to other endeavors.
It’s hard not to start thinking back and regretting all the times you took for granted. It’s also hard not to think about the future with a solemn aura because reality is hitting hard and you’re realizing that people must change, growth is required for life to be at its fullest. You can start to feel left behind when your friends are leaving on to bigger and better things, and you also can feel lost when you’re leaving to pursue something else away from all of your friends and everything you’ve known.
The thing to remember, the thing that should ground you, is that this is a form of grieving and it is also a form of comparing yourself to others. You can’t let it make you feel any less. Because you’ll stay friends, you’ll stay in touch. You’ll be on to new experiences, new wonderful people to meet. It’s hard to keep this in mind when you’re opening yourself up to someone and getting to know them and then your friendship is put to the test of distance.
My journey is far from over, and I really just have to keep reminding myself that fact.